Dictionary.com defines a perfectionist as someone who demands perfection from him or herself and others. It defines perfection as the state or quality of becoming perfect. I think that is an accurate description of myself.
Just when I think I'm laid back and easy going, there it is. The desire to be perfect. I think I'll always be this way. I set pretty high standards for myself. And if I don't meet them, I beat myself to the ground. I sometimes push these so-called standards onto my family, especially Annabelle. Expectations that I have no right to establish. Epic fail if I don't reach that certain standard is how I feel. I am trying to improve on not stressing over little things, but it doesn't always work as planned. I understand that I am not perfect. At all. But I am working on it. If this sounds crazy to you then you obviously are not a perfectionist. If it makes perfect sense then welcome to the Crazy Club.
In my endeavor to be "perfect", I don't always drive the speed limit. Sometimes my road rage gets the best of me. I sometimes cut people off in traffic and I'm a very offensive driver. In driver's ed they taught us to be defensive. Oh well. I also will drive for 15 minutes at times just to get the closest parking spot, including stepping on the gas to get it before someone else. I don't always let the person with just a few items to cut in the front of me in the grocery store either. I even have turned my head when I see a man begging for food by throwing out his pride and holding up a sign hoping someone will help him. I'm not perfect.
I know that God wants us to live in His perfect will so being a perfectionist isn't bad at all as long as we are in striving for His perfect will. I try very hard to live by God's rules in my life, but it's not easy. Thank God for His grace and mercy and for having patience with me. I am a (piece of) work in progress. Striving for perfection. Every day. And it's OK. Cause He's not finished with me yet.
"For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6
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